I'm Alex.
And I got to admit that life's been kinda good.
Cake actually.
I'm a jock, left winger hockey player and all through high school it's done me pretty well. My family owns a good business in town actually a few of them. Grand dad on mom's side had a dairy farm and actually did okay, Mom's a registered nurse, my dad owns a big hardware store and adjoining nursery.
I kinda never really lacked for nothing either and always had money.
Oh I worked for it, the family's pretty big on that but I never had to look for work.
And always got paid well and as long as my marks were good in both high school and college dad paid for the schooling and for all that stuff. Me just my clothes, food, upkeep on my cars and my basic bills.
I never lacked for pussy either.
I'm not bad looking but yeah I had it made and girls were very into that.
They weren't so much into my sister's or my mom keeping a really sharp eye out for gold diggers.
And yeah there were a few.
And yeah I broke up with a lot of girls simply for no good reason other than I literally didn't have to settle.
So after college I went to work for Dad and I'm okay with that too.
We have a big business and that's my degree too bachelor's of finance. I'm kind of expected to help and eventually take over.
But everything changed when I decided to buy a house.
It was a fixer upper for certain but hey, the family literally was in hardware so I moved in and started working on it.
And that sort of led to fixing it up at night when I'd stay over.
That's when I met Jason.
I think I knew him in school like way back and he...he was handsome in that pretty way.
Long black silky hair, kind of a goth but not. He didn't have the clothes or that junk jewelry.
He reminded me of a sissy boy.
You know, those crossdressers and shemales.
But one of those guys that can pass for a girl with really little work.
Yeah I know what all that is, I've seen lots of porn, followed a few links and jerked it to the pretty ladyboys.
I guess we were on friendly terms for about a few months before I invited myself over after I'd gotten the living room all done and painted and squared away.
I rang the bell.
He answered all pretty looking and dressed down in the whole relaxed black t-shirt over one of those long sleeved t-shirt like things and faded jeans, long black hair hanging loose but kinda tumbled looking...killer blue eyes.
"Alex."
"Hey Jase, I just got done the living room and thought that I'd celebrate and well you're here."
I showed him the bottle a nice bottle of Appleton's rum and he casually shrugged. "Cool come on in."
I'll admit getting really impressed by his place. Nice furniture and carpeting with a really killer home theater and fireplace but a great collection of art, art prints and this sort of eclectic geek stuff.
A bookcase stood out nicely with like definite geek stuff on it but a lot of books too like two shelves of hardcovers.
"Nice place."
Jason got glasses and ice. "Thanks."
We drank quite a bit and he showed me around and he's an artist. Like a real artist with a basement studio and everything.
He'd be a sexy she.
And I was drunk enough that I said that. "You'd make a sexy girl."
"Excuse me?"
"Y'know, you're hot Jase, pretty even and there are boys out there that'd make better girls."
"Like you."
He said that and I blinked.
"Uhm...no, I'm not the pretty one you are?"
Jason looked at me. "I think you're pretty Lexi, nice eyes, an oval face that has you look kind of girl like, you must take after your mom. I'd fuck you."
Huh...what?
But...seriously?
Lexi?
"No, no Jason you're prettier than me, it's like who has the little sissy dick is the girl."
"Oh really?"
"Yeah...!" I was drunk, I dropped my pants and shorts and pulled it out half stiff and stoked it. "See big like seven inches!"
Jason dropped his pants and he pulled out something my full size and growing.
"Oh shit that's a big cock."
He stepped up and took my hand off my hard on and put it on his.
I didn't know another's cock would be that heavy...I could feel his pulse, God it was hot and hardening.
"C'mon Lexi you know the rules. Smaller dicks must serve."
I did didn't I?
And Jason's cock was bigger, a lot bigger and in my hand and getting harder and throbbing.
I dropped to my knees and I don't know why other than it's kind of sort of the "rules" I started trying to suck that cock...god like those sissy blogs say. "That first taste."
I had no clue I was...I mean I'm a built dude...a jock.
After a few minutes Jase pulled away. "You're not loving that enough Lexi, go home."
"Go home?"
"Yeah go home, come back when you're cleaned out and hairless and smooth and ready for me."
I was barely dressed when he had me out of his place.
That's never happened before?
I...I could still taste his dick from minutes ago.
It wasn't enough?
I wasn't enough?
I went home with a raging hard on then beat off fantasizing of when I had that huge cock in my hand and in my mouth.
I caught my cum as much as I could and ate it wishing it was his.
Fuck...
The rest of the week was me being obsessed. I drove myself a little nuts watching shemale porn and going to those sissy sites and pages. Part wanting to fuck them but more than ever wanting to be one of those girls.
Exposed to cock...that first time...feeling those needs...knowing I'd never be the same.
I mean never, ever in my life had I been turned down before or turned on so much.
Hell I think part of it was entitled ego and getting turned down.
But another part of me...wanted it, that huge cock, wanted Jason with every passing day.
I bought Veet and got smooth and went to the mall and bought things, things to get pretty...I had to right? Make-up to try those You tube tutorials, condoms, lube, toothpaste, lotion, baby powder.
I even went to Victoria's secret and bought panties and a couple of camisole tops. No one batted an eye because a guy like me was buying for a girl right?
I tried different things, trying to be pretty, to see in me what he said.
Jason said I was pretty, he called me Lexi.
It turned me on harder.
I mean I'm brown haired, green eyed and well muscled and lean.
I look like a guy.
A good looking guy with a damned decent cock.
But here I was taking time to get smooth, do my toenails, learning how to get sexy eyes and use fake nails and lashes.
Getting my wig just right.
Jason was right about my face though, especially made up a little and wearing the wig.
And ending up looking like a sort of pretty girl with way too big of shoulders and way too defined muscles and no tits.
Some really weird chimera.
I'd even get myself cleaned up inside just to be used to it for...for that night.
That was embarrassing, freaky and at the same time made me ache to be filled every time I cleaned myself out.
That weekend I took extra care of everything. Wig styled, best panties on, nails, make-up, lotioned sweet smelling body, soft pink glossy lips. I even had gotten a simple white and peach flower dress, purse and flats.
I was scared, scared out of my head.
After it was pretty late I went out back and crossed yards and knocked on Jason's patio door.
I had to knock a few times before he showed up from downstairs where he'd been painting he walked over and he opened the door.
Looked me over with a raised eyebrow.
"Very cute, very sexy Lexi."
I blushed. "I...I tried."
"You're sober too, pretty serious huh?"
"I...I don't even get it...I mean...I don't get why?" I wanted to know why, I wanted an explanation why.
"You will, come with me."
God he was sexy, pretty and those eyes.
But his voice too...sexy, soft, strong though.
Jase took my hand and led me to his bedroom which was as cool as the rest of the place. Artistic, sort of spartan with the bed being the really only feature in the room aside from the art. It was a nice bed too with this simple boxed dark wood frame and nice sheets no footboard that I could see just a headboard console like thing.
Jason led me to the bed and turned on some music, something soft and mellow like John Legend.
I slip letting the dress fall and blush stepping out of the flats then got on his bed.
I was surprised when I turned and he kissed me.
Strong but gentle, his hand on my chin tilting my head up and Jason kissing me like I'm the girl.
The bed was super soft and the sheets were really nice too and I unbuckled his jeans and let them fall and his underwear too as I fished out his cock and stuffed in my my mouth.
Sucked on him, growing that monster until he was hard.
He pulled his shirts off and for a thin guy he was ripped, great definition, full six pack and everything and he had tattoos. Both arms were covered and with cool stuff not gang shit or nazi bullshit but ravens and spiders and straight razors and candles, blackened hearts and even on one a pretty big dragon the one from those dragonball cartoons and the other a pretty big dandelion.
He had a wreath of thorns in black around his belly button too.
God damned he was sexy as fuck.
All of it made my not able to not touch him, run my fingers over tattoos and his muscles.
Made sucking his cock so much better, sexier.
He pulled out when I kind of gagged a little.
"Roll over, and pass me the lube."
I shiver at the command. Jase has this soft spoken no bullshit, take you over sort of voice. I get the lube and give it to him and roll over and Jason slips my panties aside and starts lubing my bum.
I shiver and whine moan.
Jason says softly. "Good girl, good girl Lexi."
His fingers find my sissy spot.
I read about it but never...oh god never.
Getting finger fucked was life changing, Lexi waking, making me whine and shiver and moan all the way to squirting and Jason kept going fingering and rubbing until something else happened.
I had a sissy orgasm.
It was like cumming, exploding inside of yourself.
It changes your brain when you've been a really successful hetero guy all your life and then you're getting fingerfucked and cumming without your dick.
And Jason adds more and more lube and fingers and fucking me until his hand and arm was tired.
I was dazed until Jason's huge cock sank into me.
I cried out and face planted and moan-wailed into the sheets.
Fully girly, full on the girl getting her cherry popped.
It was just the biggest thing, this great swollen tip slipping in past my anal ring and spreading my insides more and more and it hurt but didn't. Jason took his time letting my body adjust and me to lose my mind.
It was like that too there was no part of me remotely ready for this.
Jason's huge cock sinking inside me opening me up, waking nerves, needs, parts of me that I was sure never existed.
I tossed my head, screamed as I was being filled up.
"Aaaaaaah...aaaaah! Fff...fuck...fuck...cock...huge...cock...!!"
"Higher Lexi, pitch it higher, say it higher."
Jase's cock filled me, possessed me, took me over as he pulled out and sank back inside and he started fucking me.
It was dominating, this huge thick thing pushing and pulling in and through all of me making me feel.
"Oh...ooooh fuck...good...so good!!"
"You've a tight sweet ass girl."
"Unngh...ahh...how...how...unng...Jase, Jason, why...? Why me?"
He sank his cock in deep again.
"Because when you think of doing those sissy types you think about being those sissies yourself don't you?"
"I..." Oh god, oh god the cock keeps driving me, sinking deep, pushing over the edge.
"Yes, yes...oh fuck...yes..."
"So you did think of this?"
"Gnnnh...yes, yes...since I tasted you..."
"You know you're not the only one. Not the only guy that sees the way I look and thought like you did. You are the first one that didn't flip out when I turned the tables, most do that freak out but not you, not you Lexi you went for it and beyond."
"R...really? F..ff..fuck, so glad that I did..."
"You like this huh? You're my first for this actually."
"Like...like...ff...fuck...love it, love it fuck me Jason, please fuck me, use me, make me your sissy."
"If that's what you really want, I gotta say you're boipussy is really tight and very clean."
"Gnnn...yes...I want it...please Jase fuck me...please baby do me, fuck meeeeee..."
I had another sissy orgasm.
He got into a tempo and the invasion became my surrender, became me becoming this sissy girl crying her eyes out because it feels better than anything in her life.
I got hard in my panties again, get hard and untouched Jason keeps fucking me until I lost it and squirt filling them again.
Then who knows how much bliss later another sissygasm.
He has such staying power too it feels like forever before he got to the point where he gets close and starts fucking me harder in that guy getting ready to cum way.
I got to where I grabbed his pillow and was shrieking into it as his cock rammed through me.
I felt like one long extended orgasm until Jason buried his cock inside of my hard and deep and there was this blissful little pop in my head as his cum blasted my insides and boiled inside of me.
I joy sobbed.
Jason just held my hips in this really strong grip and rolled our hips riding out the orgasm as more cum, the rest of his cum was emptied into me.
I collapsed when he pulled out and let go of my hips.
I was in literally fucking shock on the bed and he left and came back with two big lemonades on ice with straws and a hot damp towel and he pulled my panties down and cleaned me up.
Gently.
Which made my shocked brain cry in little happy bursts.
Jason moved the covers and we climbed into the bed after finishing the drinks and he kissed me again.
"Stay the night?"
"You want me to?"
"Yeah, we're lovers and I'm not an asshole...stay."
I swallowed and shy smiled. "Okay."
He kissed me again. "Good."
God...my brain was trying to process all of this but the bed was soft, I was literally fucked to exhaustion and the sheets felt amazing and...and Jason spooned me.
I fell asleep held like that for the first time in my life.
My brain trembled with my body.
I could feel it, my insides all those nooks, crannies, all those muscles inside me trembling inside from being fucked so hard and so deep.
All mirroring my brain and the shock of getting fucked too and how much I loved it. And I did love it, more than I should, more than any jock guy ever should.
If there was a part of me that was resisting all of this it was losing.
And Jason holding me as I slept and twitched and cried in my sleep just made it so much harder for any chance to go back of happening.
He woke me up even after a while.
"Hey...hey, you're crying."
(Sniffle) "Yeah...sorry."
"No, it's cool why?"
"I'm freaked out, scared, I don't get why I did this, don't get why I liked this so much."
Jason kissed my neck, my ear, there was a graze of teeth. "Maybe this is you? I kind of hear people talking about how society locks them into sexuality and gender roles."
He had this warn kidding sound in his voice.
"I know you're joking Jason but nothing has ever felt like this and I'm still freaking."
"Girls, pussy wasn't like this?"
"No...good yeah but not even close to this."
"So maybe you were just going through the motions? And maybe this whole thing is a water in a desert kind of thing? All the real you is growing and blooming."
"Okay where does that leave me?"
"I'm my bed, in my arms. There could be worse places Lexi."
"Jason are you gay?"
"Not really, never really thought too much about sex really after a while."
"After a while?"
"Guys wanting me to be their fuckboy, girls into the way I look and then getting into sex with them usually was too much for them and the sharing..."
"Sharing?"
He sighed. "Some of them would try to pass me off to their friends like I was a challenge or a trading card and that just never worked out."
"Sounds like though you could have most girls or gay guys."
"Well a lot of those girls that tried to stick it out ended up driving me nuts. I've always had social problems and not just from my looks but I'm private, a homebody and I like my life as my life. Change for me isn't a great thing usually. And as to gay guys like I said I never thought of myself as gay and still don't...I'm not into receiving if you catch my drift."
"I get it but kinda not right now."
"Oh?"
"That...this is kind of amazing Jason."
He kissed my neck again. "It was, I've never been all the way inside of anyone until now Lexi. You're literally the best lover I've ever had."
I was blushing after that. "But we're cool? I mean you and me and if you weren't into this...into guys."
"You were, are so not a guy when you knocked on the back door."
"But...why? Why even be with me?"
"Does it matter?"
"Kinda, I'm just trying to figure this out. Me out?"
He turned me over and I rolled with it to face him and my breath caught. He was still just that mix of pretty and gorgeous but his hair was all loose and tousled and his eyes.
He kissed me and yeah I was genuinely melting, falling hard.
"It's because you were earnest, honest, you wanted this and came over...did all this work on yourself too and were sober and flat out scared."
"That...that's why you like me?"
He kissed me again. "Yeah Lexi, you're literally the first honest and earnest person I've really been with."
I kissed him back and cried a little too because honestly I've never had anyone want that kind of thing from me.
I've always been Alex the good looking well off jock guy. I never thought too much about what kind of person that I wanted to be.
Jason...he just sort of upended my life and who I am.
And it wasn't a bad thing.
I've never kissed that long or made out as the girl.
And Jase got hard again.
Oh...
Things went fast after that with him kissing me going to him doing that and lubing my sore bum pretty gently and then.
Oh god...he pulled my legs up over his shoulders and slowly sank his big, big thick, hot hard cock into me.
I whimper-moaned. "Ohhhh, yes...oh fuck, yes."
Sinking, sinking, filling me up so much, spreading me open so much and I loved it, wanted it so much.
"Oh fuck...god Jason, god that cock...so big, so hard fill me up, fill me up..."
"So good Lexi, so tight, warm."
"Fuck me Jason, please, please, god I love this."
He was careful but he picked up speed and the feelings were rising and blooming inside of me. All the pain but overwhelmed by the pleasure...hell the waves of cock bestowed ecstasy rocking me and making me squirt without a hand or anything else touching me then the following sissy cummies drifting me away and more...
More being sort of transformed.
You feel so girly, small, kind of perfect with a huge cock fucking you.
You feel so girl, sissy, fuckable when that guy with the huge cock has your legs in the air over his shoulders.
And the cock.
The cock sinks in deeper that way too.
I was falling, falling into the depths Jason fucked me, his cock feeling more and more like it was sliding into me through my sissy spot and up my spine and was actually nudging my brain.
And it was over and over and over.
A man inside you, a real man will change you forever..you will love every thrust inside of you, it will make you cry, moan and beg for more and you WILL heartfelt mean every "Harder! Deeper!"
Jason actually stopping and staying buried inside of me as he cooled down from getting close to cumming to kiss me.
It changes you.
It becomes you, being this way, kind of becomes so good, so better than good because there's feeling, care, emotions all going on.
And there's this look on Jason's face as he's so blissed out and feeling engulfed for the first time...with his looks and that hair and eyes...tattoos.
Like I've some romance novel goth elfin prince as a lover.
Cum changes you too.
The first time Jason came inside of me it was shocking, stunning and good.
The second time he came inside of me filling me with hot boiling cum I was more accepting of it, it was less of the shock and more a thing of pleasure, a very good thing.
The third time Jason filled me with cum it was more like yes, yes, yes, I wanted this...it was starting to become something my body was craving.
There's a lot of those sissy sites and blogs that talk about another man's cum inside of you sending chemical signals to your brain making you gay, or gayer, more submissive.
I kind of thought was bullshit but now I'm not sure...I think it's all in my head from reading that stuff but I'm liking being pumped full of cum more and more.
And I loved getting Jase to that point, cumming inside of me and seeing and feeling that I made him feel that good.
We he cums that last time somehow he still fucks me a little as he's softening and I have a final sissy orgasm with a soft cry coming out of me and he kisses me letting my legs slip down and they're trembling and my insides are trembling as he pulls out of me.
I don't feel like a guy, I don't feel like the person I was before this at all.
I wrap my arms over his shoulders and we kiss until I can't stay awake anymore and I'm so spent, so, so, exhausted.
I wake after I don't know how long I slept but it was daytime when I woke and Jason wasn't in the bed and I felt so sore when I went to move and at the same time there was this ache inside that wasn't an ache but this so defined feeling that I'd been fucked.
Fucked.
Fucked by a guy.
Fucked by a guy long and hard and sweetly.
I slipped out of bed and found his bathroom that was attached to the bedroom and I looked like a freak, traces of lipstick, make-up all wrecked my wig was gone into bed-head fucked chick mode and pulling that off just pushed my trauma over the edge and I went into the shower and I cried.
You'd think all of this would have me feeling sexy and happy but it wasn't that.
I felt fucked.
I felt fucked up.
The question of who was I? What was I kept flowing through my brain and my body and I wash and sort of hug myself a lot in the shower under the hot water.
I mean everything I've ever known was just...
Away from a mirror and getting to breathe and was helped.
I think the way that I looked was the thing that tripped me off.
I mean...I don't pass.
I really didn't pass the morning after.
But the shower and the soap suds running off my smoothed hairless skin helped.
I get out and dry off and skip into my wig after fixing it as best as I could and slipped into my dress and went to find Jason who was making coffee. As much as it smelled good... "I gotta go Jase, I...I should've brought things I...I just need to think, get a grip on this."
And I flaked...took off headed to my house and didn't even really give him a chance to say anything to stop me.
The short trip in my dress between the back yards was terror inducing.
Which made things worse.
I had no clue if I screwed things up either...I ended up in my bedroom crying and freaking out and recovering in bed the rest of the weekend.
Jason didn't come over either.
He went out of his place once tossing the garbage in his plywood painted dumpster thingy and took off in his van for like a long time.
I actually missed whenever he got home since I'd cried myself to sleep after a frustrating time on the internet trying to find someone dealing with the same things as I was and ending up with a bunch of close things but not the same thing.
Going back to work on Monday was a distraction that I needed.
I was distracted at work too a lot and it was Wednesday when my sister Kate stopped in my office with two coffees.
"What's up Alex?"
"Invoices, deliveries the same old thing."
She looked at me. "Not really though right? I mean something's going on."
"Why does there have to be something going on."
"Because you get a little far off and away when there's something wrong, usually a girl."
"It's not that."
"You sure? I looks like that."
I motioned for her to shut the door. Kate's cool, most of my family is really but Kate's the sister that has your back."
She closed the door.
I drank some coffee using the heat to get the lump in my throat loose.
"It's a guy."
She coughed on her coffee.
"What?"
"I...I had this whole sex thing encounter thing with this guy and it's messing with me."
She sat and drank some coffee. "There's no shame in being Gay or Bi Alex."
"What about being Lexi?"
"What?"
I drank some more coffee and slowly starting telling Kate about Lexi and how I felt, how I feel.
I sat quietly in the office with Kate and sort of explained things.
"I met a guy, I met this really pretty beautiful guy and I...I well thought that he'd make a good girlfriend...a sissy type."
She looked at me. "Sissy?"
"It's like a sort of trans thing and a gay thing it's a very submissive bottom thing."
"You're into that?"
I nod. "I am...was...am."
She drinks some more coffee. "But you're the bottom?"
I blush and nod. "I propositioned him and he turned things around and he called me Lexi and called me pretty and things sort of snowballed after that to me over his place in panties and a dress shaved, and waxed and made up in a wig then with him fucking me all night long."
"All night long?"
"No...well three times and his cock is so beautiful..."
Kate's staring at me. "Beautiful jesus Alex you sound..."
She stops as I mine the size of Jason's cock.
Her eyes widen. "Holee fuck are you okay?"
"No...I freaked out the next morning and left and we haven't really talked since."
"But you liked it."
"Loved it, hell I'm literally different now Kate I never really noticed guys before, men and now...I'm freaking cock watching and noticing how cute some guys are."
"So you're gay or bi?"
"I miss being Lexi."
"So you're that and a crossdresser, kinda freaky but hey it's not hurting anyone."
"I just don't know what to do with this, with how I'm feeling."
"Well...I'll help, you need a friend with this sis because this Jason guy sounds like you jumped into the deep end without knowing how to swim."
"You'll help?"
"Lexi I'm your sister, I'm not going to leave you hanging over your not being straight."
We hug.
We haven't hugged like a really long I love you hug in a long time and that feels good.
"I'll be back after work and we'll do some shopping girl, be prepared to fuck your credit cards up tonight."
"Okay and you'll get to see my new place."
"Deal."
The rest of the work day went by really fast as I was distracted with what we were going to be doing.
I so had this whole fairy godmother thing going on.
I get ready after work and meet Kate on the way out and I take her to my new house and she checks things out.
"Looks good so far, you going to flip it?"
"I don't know. That was the plan but I kind of like living here instead of apartment life."
"I can get that. Okay show me your stuff and show me Lexi."
I'm really nervous but I take her upstairs and show her my stash and she pulls out everything and puts it out on the bed.
"Yep, you need some help girl."
"Yeah, I know."
"Go get Lexi out here."
I shower and get made up and my wig on and dressed up and then into my panties and one of my dresses then come out.
Kate's looking at me.
"The guy was right sis you are cute but there's stuff we can do, stuff we will get you done up with and things."
"Really?"
"Yeah really?"
"You don't think I'm a freak?"
She hugs me. "No sis, never, there's no shame in being you. Now get changed and let's go shopping."
I get changed and she's on her phone texting until I come out and she and I take my car since it's bigger and we head out going to Easton a couple towns over where there's places that she wants to go to.
God...the first place we go to is the lingerie shops getting things that will fit me properly with Kate being able to shop for things much more at ease than me and buying me the right sizes for my too big shoulders and chest that just seemed...seemed a lot more off when I shopped but when she has the right bras and these bigger gel inserts.
She pulls me into the changing rooms and shows me it can be a lot less off than I thought.
And once we find what I need like that we buy everything in my sizes with matching panties and garters plus stockings too.
And slips, oh...oh my god I fucking love slips, like the lingerie styled ones and they cover things up while making me feel actually sexy and pretty.
And camisoles, corsets, chemises tops.
Thigh socks, lots of thigh socks.
And then we head out to various women's clothing stores.
Kate starts showing me that there's a lot, a lot of bigger girls out there, real women that literally have the same issues with their bodies as I do too.
A&M, Dynamite, American Outfitters, American Eagle, The Gap, Forever 21, 30 Church, Northern Reflections, Sears, Wal-Mart.
I'm drinking it in with every change in the changing rooms that we can pull off and Kate showing me, telling me.
"Look Lexi it's always with all of us about feeling good, building your womanly confidence and literally just dealing with shit you hate. We all have that shitty inner voice, we all have assholes wanting to tear us down to make us feel better."
And it's make-up, lots of that too with us getting all sorts of things from the high end to her fave brands and things that will work for me and a lot of Dollar Store make-up because...
"Some of this stuff's okay and the rest of it's good for practicing with. If you can get your look down with this then you can do a lot better with better."
And some of her texting is with bigger friends of hers that help send us to places where things will fit if they have them in stock.
We end the night with things for my place.
Well not the night but we shopped literally until they closed the mall on us and we went back to my place after getting some drinks and ordered pizza's.
We drink tequila and lime coolers and white wine with pineapple sangria and put things away while trying things and getting dressed up and made up over and over.
We talk to.
About guys.
About being a guy and how that it's not all that great for some of us...that we want to be different, not the guys we get molded into being.
That's a conversation because Kate's a feminist and at first there's all the male privilege stuff and you can just do it and it takes a lot of personal stories of mine and of friends that kinda shows her that really going off guy script is really punished hard and that starts really early and that yeah it's socialization but you can't come at us as kids for responding to threat of violence and stuff as little kids.
And I learn more too that it is really fucked up just as much for girls too in their expectations when they're not feeling it either.
We agree that both sides go through rough stuff and there's more people that are shitty bigots and racists and well just plain hateful assholes.
We agree that if people could just be...who they are that folks would be a lot happier and safer.
It's literally, literally the most we ever talked and the most political that I've ever let myself get.
Alex wanted people to love him, like him, and that was a lot of don't worry be happy.
Lexi wants to be heard and be seen.
Kate crashed at my place and we slept together in the same bed as sisters as siblings for the first time in our lives.
It was bonding on a pretty big level.
And we kind of spent the rest of the week like that getting closer and closer as she helps me develop my look, teaches me how to talk, move how to be ever conscious of my breasts because that's this huge part of how she grew up moving and all girls did really.
We ordered wigs, good wigs online and had them fast shipped to my places as well as proper breast forms too.
All of it expensive but oh my fuck so worth it.
We even talk sex.
She's really single now after a break-up with Conner her last guy that just couldn't get that she wasn't taking him not doing stuff as an equal in a relationship.
I don't have a lot of experience and neither does she with stuff like giving head or getting eaten out or anal.
"I'd be more open to that stuff but it's the guys. They want stuff just because they want it and they don't get that they really have to be the kinda guy that I want to try that stuff with...and that's been rare."
We both though love getting deeply cocked, and that feeling that hits so deep when it's good and it runs through you all the way into your brain.
Jason though...he's a steady never seen but present person in my head.
Seriously I never see him that week at all either he's gone somewhere or likely in his basement doing his art and stuff.
Friday night...Friday night she makes plans for us to go out.
Clubbing in Easton at a few places.
I shower and Veet all the unwanted hairs away again and this super hot cold close shave too and then a lotion that is scented like shea butter and then baby powder where I need it.
We start with going super bold...we dye my hair red, we go with a hot red and then we do my eyebrows and then my long tousled red wavy wig that looks really hot and we glue it in place and then it's my gaff, black cheeky panties and then getting my breast forms in and secured and getting the edges all blended.
Corset...black with ribbing and lace.
A matching black bra.
Then...a short skirt in black, cute flats, a cute scoop necked top that is red and shows both bra and cleavage.
God.
God.
"I look...Oh Kate...I look pretty."
"You look hot sis, big amazon chicks definitely have their fans. The tits help for sure, you look great as a DD."
"I might just cry."
"No, don't jeeze c'mon let's take off."
We head off at Easton meeting a couple of her friends and we pick them up at Sherry's place and we take a cab from there to Clancy's.
Clancy's is a gay bar that is pretty open I guess with letting women in too with there being no lesbian bar around so it's mostly a gay bar with like some LGBT+ stuff going on and different things on different nights and all.
Smartly they have this upstairs floor mostly for the women on Friday and Saturday nights.
We start there first as even if we're not here for the lesbian action we are here to dance and for me to learn how to dance.
We do some shots first and then dance and I see this girl looking at me as I take a break at the bar and get a drink.
"You're a guy?" She says sort of asking too.
"I'm Lexi."
"You know this is the dyke section right?"
"I'm not here to hit on people, I just want to dance and like learn how to."
"Really?"
"Yeah really, pretty sure I'm into guys."
"Oh...well eeew but power to you."
"Same, hope you have a good night though."
"I'm Tanya."
"Lexi."
"Yeah you said...wanna dance?"
"Thought you don't like me?"
"Sorry, just bad stuff going on."
"Okay, but I'm really new at this!"
Tanya and I dance together and she does help and she does teach me things too and we have a few more drinks.
"C'mon I'll take you downstairs."
"But you don't like guys?"
"I don't like creepers in dyke territory, but I've some gay guys as friends I'll introduce you."
It does occur to me she's getting me out of dyke territory but at the same time she's not that bad...I've met worse folks as customers at the hardware store honestly.
And she's true to her word and she takes me downstairs and introduces me around.
It's good and bad, there's few guys that are interested but I'm put in this whole tranny zone.
I keep hearing. "Come back Thursdays...It'll be better."
But it's not horrible either I meet Troy who's nice and dances with me a couple of times and buys me a cooler. "Don't mind these assholes. They're a bunch of jaded pricks that like being catty bullies."
He introduces my to a few nicer folks or at least more chill guys that are sort of by these pinball machines alongside one side of the dance floor area and there's two girls there like me one called Giselle who's black and really cute looking and Jasmine who's middle eastern and is really killing it with her being skinny and hot in this goth way.
Kate and the girls catch up with me down here and we make introductions all around and we order lots of drinks and end up talking and laughing and dancing.
And during all that I meet Logan.
Or rather re-meet him.
I remember him from high school with him being a football player and one of those offensive tackle guys. He was huge them and he's only gotten bigger since then.
We really didn't know each other then and now.
He's kind of a nice guy.
He's not much of a dancer except when the slow stuff started playing and he just stepped up and took my hand.
"Want to dance with me Lexi?"
"Sure I'd love to Logan."
It was a little awkward at first with him being my first slow dancing partner as a girl. But once we settled into the second song it got better as we got closer and closer and I felt Logan's hard on and it was definitely nice.
And there were times he just made me feel small, cute, dainty.
I love that he took these close but shy inhales of my skin and my hair.
"You smell amazing Lexi."
"Thanks, I really didn't want to overdo it and be one of those people you can taste from ten feet away."
"Well you're spot on, just the right parts of everything."
"Of everything?"
"I think I like you Lexi, like you a lot."
"Dating like?"
"Maybe, but I was thinking of something more adventurous tonight."
"My place or yours?"
"My place if that's cool with you if you're not out."
"I'm still renovating my place, but no I'm not out...are you?"
"Oh yeah since college."
"How'd that go?"
"Still going, my family's a work in progress. My mom's lamenting my giving her grandchildren and dad doesn't get how a big strapping guy like me likes boys."
"Well I'm not exactly a boy Logan."
"And I'm not strictly a certain way gay Lexi. I think you're a hot trans chic and that's definitely a thing for me."
"Even though I'm not like dainty and stuff?"
"Who needs dainty, that's breakable, I like you...you're like red-headed Wonder Woman."
I chuckle. "My sister Kate said I was amazon looking."
"She's right."
And that's where he kissed me and that...that was nice, hot...hotter still when his hands slipping down my back and gripped my bottom and he squeezed just right and lifted.
Oh...he could have picked me up really easily if he wanted to.
And my hands went to his chest and there was all this big, broad, hard muscle.
Oh...oh this feels.
"Logan?"
"Yes Lexi?"
"Take me to your place please?"
He kissed me again and took me over by the hand to get my things and say my goodbye's to Kate and the others and I give her my car keys and Logan takes me out to his truck and helps me inside.
Which was nice, it feels good to have him do that like there's actually some respect there and the truck's pretty clean but smells of sawdust which is a nice smell and he puts on the radio and he drives me to where he lives.
It's a nice mini-home if an older one right beside Warren Lake which is an older area but still nice and he's right down closer the the water with a pretty big yard, great deck added to the mini-home and it's got a nice view.
We're kissing as we're headed inside and I'm getting him out of his pants...boxers...such a cock...long, thick...with this upcurve to it I've never seen in person before.
I'm on my knees pretty fast and wrapping my lips around Logan's cock tasting the flesh, the musk, his pre-cum and I'm not choking, not this time instead I settle in and be careful, remember everything a girl has ever done and everything I wanted them to do.
Oh...oh fuck yes...I like this.
I like everything about this and when Logan's big strong hands take my head in his grip they almost cover my head and he's so...so fucking strong that I'm really not in control any more as he holds me there and I suck and suck and his thick cock slips in and out of my lips and mouth...it...it get's better as he pushes it down my throat too.
I gag, I didn't want to but I gag until it's past that spot and that reflex gets blocked off by sheer cock.
My throat can't spasm closed to really gag and the more he rides my throat the less the reflex is working and I'm getting into it more and more as it feels like it's not just hitting the back of my throat but tapping my brainstem and it's sending dick messages into my brain.
Then Logan speeds up and it gets harder and harder and them it's boiling out of him and he's sending the first shot straight down inside me then more and more until he lets go and I pull of to normal and make sure he's clean as I take every bit of it.
Yeah...I'm such a sissy...I loved that strength, that force, his power a kind of turn on...and the cock...the taste of cum...Oh yeah I'm definitely a cocksucker too.
I look up at Logan who's got his shirt off and is huge and ripped and naked and he reaches down and sweeps me into his arms like I'm a feather I squeal squeak this happy and really surprised sound and kisses me all the way down the hall to his bedroom.
Logan carries me down the hall of his place like i'm some little feather making me feel definitely thrilled and small but he's a really huge guy honestly like one of those guys that was big in high school but he really worked out and got bigger still in college.
I like the way that all feels.
I like that he carries me all the way into his bedroom and sets me on his bed.
Oh wow I like his bed.
Well off the floor and it's three two by eight heavy boards made of either pine or spruce but it's all light colored wood and a bookcase like headboard that's built to right under this big bay window under the head of the bed that looks out over the lake with a nice view.
King sized mattress and nice bedding and now like campy gay stuff but it all is nice and it matches.
His bedroom itself is just nice with a set of closet folding doors that match the bed and an entertainment unit the same way and the walls actually have a nice forest and fern misty kind of wall paper going on that is helped along with him having a few small plants here and there out of the way and a lush well cared for spider plant hanging in one of the corners.
One wall doesn't totally match and that's for the attached bathroom and it has a full length mirror on it and beside it a peg board with all sorts of pictures and postcards.
I'm still tasting Logan in my mouth and licking my lips as he turns on some music and switches the lights to something smaller and softer and he actually starts to move to the music and he does this kind of hot and built stripper dance for me.
My fingers twitch with my brain at feeling his really hard and powerful muscles.
Oh this, this is great.
Logan slowly takes off my top and shimmies off my skirt and grabs my legs and pulls off my panties and undoes my gaff.
Then he reaches and gets a tube of lube from his pants and sinks to his knees and takes my cock into his mouth.
I might be Lexi right now but oh yeah I like my girl cock sucked.
Logan's mouth is insistent, strongly sucking my boiclitty making me breathe hard and whine.
He uses his fingers and starts lubing my core really well.
Starts fingering me.
"Oh...oh fuck...yes...Logan yes...finger me, finger me, finger fuck me...milk your sissy girl."
The fingering becomes his fingers inside me gently but amazingly massaging my sissy spot with this pressure that's just perfect...perfect...and...I shoot hard and cum into his powerful mouth.
And his fingers make me sissy orgasm right on top of that.
"Eeeeeeeee...oh...fuck Logan!"
I full femmy voice girly squeal.
I'm still seeing stars when he pushes my legs up and over his big broad shoulders and he pushes that in with that huge knob cockhead into me, deep, deep, into my core taking my ass in one steady push.
Slow but not, no stopping just sinking inch after inch of cock into me.
"Aaaaah...fuck yes, fuck Logan that...that's just...fill me!"
He bottoms out into me and adjusts his grip and pulls out and thrusts back into me.
"You like that Princess? You like that hard cock stretching you, filling you up?"
"Yes, yes, yes...please more."
Logan starts fucking me with earnest, with this steady purpose and all this power and all that muscle.
Banging me literally.
And banging my sissy spot like a man that knows how to fuck a sissy.
Making my head spin with this incredibly pleasure and he just keeps hammering away, fucking me with all this pure power like I'm his beauty and he's this passionate savage beast.
"Take it Princess, take it Princess, take this cock, love it."
"Eeeeeee...yes! Yes give it to me, give it to me, fuck me, make me your girl, your woman, your sweet sissy Princess."
"Yes, yes Lexi, fuuuuuck such a good ass, such a sweet boipussy."
My brain is overloading and...and I'm...it's like those feelings that cock's slamming up my spine and into my brain.
I feel small, pretty, sweet and literally oh so fuckable.
I love it!
Love, love, love it!
Logan speeds up really, really hard and I'm crying and squealing just only able to make these really primal girly sounds and then he fills me, fills me up with these hot, hot powerful blasts of his manly seed.
Cum!
There's cum in my bum, inside of me and I moan this long, long moan of pleasure.
More cum inside my sissy jock princess bum.
It's so good.
So much better than good and I swear that my body is responding like I needed that.
Logan leans over me his arms taking mine and pinning me to the bed and we kiss.
I taste like his cum from me sucking his cock and he tastes like mine and we kiss and kiss me pinned under his strength and that's so fucking good too.
Sissy princesses need firm strong men.
Jock sissy princesses crave that power.
We kiss until he's hard again and he starts fucking me again this time I wrap my legs around him and use them to pull him into me.
"That's it Princess, that's it play back, move girl."
It's this best, best fucking mix of this being pinned down sort of forced not forced and fucking him back and riding Logan's cock.
Kissing...eyes locked.
And...more and more I'm loving this, addicted to feeling this way.
And getting filled with another so amazing, beautiful load of cum flooding deep inside me.
You'd think that would be all but Logan gets hard again after more making out and he pushes me up on the bed and we roll around and he pulls out and turns me around and my hands are on the headboard when he lubes me again fingering me until he's hard again.
That killer view of the lake out his window so close to me now and if anyone could look in...
Then he's inside and fucking me hard again from behind as I push back on my knees and...and...oh...oh fuck!
He's fucking me even harder, gripping his fingers into my hips and making my clitty-spurt out another burst and then more...drooling, drooling out this steady stream of princess girly fuck juice and...and my breasts...my breast forms are swaying and bouncing as much as they can and the adhesive is good and tugging with the motion and the swaying and pulling at my mind as I feel even more girly.
The feelings of that take me right over the edge...I know it's a brain thing and all imagery meets whatever but.
I cry, really cry that it feels just so much of what I wanted but couldn't ever put to a voice.
I squeal and cum over and over because of that and Logan's hard sweet fucking and Logan's third load inside on my has more him twitch cumming than seed but it drives me to where I fade...just so good I mewl...literally drool a little and not from my clitty and exhaustion takes control of us both and Logan literally holds me up long enough to pull me down with him and into his arms then under the sheets.
I shiver as huge arms circle me and we spoon.
"You okay Princess?"
"I'm...good...mmmm...s'good Logan...wow...just fucking wow..."
"You're trembling."
"You shook me to my core baby...you're only my second."
"So it was good?"
I nod. "Perfect, it was perfect."
Logan pulls me in tighter and I fall asleep hard and still sweating and barely hearing his breathing.
I wake up and it's still late and it's still dark outside with Logan having moved and moved me and I'm lying face down in the pillows as he's been fingering me and lubing me again.
"Mmm...? What...more?"
"Yeah, you don't want more Princess?"
"I...oh...mmm...okay...not awake but...that's sooo good Logan."
He chuckles and my buttcheeks get pulled apart more and I wake up as his big cock sinks inside of me all in one steady push again.
My body is waking up with this mixture of what again!?
And yay cock!
The yay cock part is growing really fast.
Oh fuck it feels bigger after the fucking he gave me before and I fist up the sheets as Logan's fucking me.
And there's lotion suddenly on his hands and he's massaging me as he's fucking me and there's thing combination of things just making this really fucking good.
I'm getting a massage which is rare as hell for me and really nice.
Logan's sort of leaning on me holding me down to the bed with his weight as he's massaging me and that's making me feel small again in a good way.
He's really fucking me...oh fucking god when his hands come up and over my shoulders he's slamming cock hard into me making whines come out of me.
"Eeeeee....oh, oh, oh...ff..fuck...Logan! Harder, harder!"
"Harder it is Alexis....Oh I like that on you. Alexis it's sexy like a pair of dark black stockings if it was a name..."
Harder, oh fucking god he's fucking me harder.
"You're such that kind of princess, a hot, hot cock loving garter belt and stockings sexy fucking creature."
"Aaaaah! Aaaaah ff...FUCK LOGAN!!!"
I cum and I cum hard with both having a sissy orgasm from the hard direct and perfect cock pistoning I'm getting but I spurt too making me scream and see stars.
He keeps fucking me.
Now focussing just on hammering fuck-love into my sissy button.
Even with the lotion his hands are rough, worked, the hands of a carpenter...the feeling of scratchy hard calluses against my skin is so fucking masculine to me.
Fuuuuuck....I really, really like men.
He's rabbit fucking my spot over and over and over until I'm really starting to cry and sob with pleasure and then he shifts to the deep full strokes as he's getting closer and closer and then I sissy again as Logan fills me with another lava hot spurting of cum deep inside me.
Fuck, fuck, fuck...I love that...I know deep inside that his cum tipped me over the edge of cumming.
And I don't care why my body craves it but it does.
Every spurt is this good thing, there's something just so, so good about each finishing hip pump her gives me as my bum squeezes out as much seed from him as I can get.
And then there's that weight of his laying on my as he rests and kisses my neck and nibbles on it and is all fun and intimate with me as our breathing gets to be normal again.
Logan's pelvis pushed tight to the curves of my butt making me feel so femmy.
His weight, those big arms circling around me hard and tight and sliding under me so he can cup my breast forms.
"I love how you cum Alexis, jesus you're really a sissy."
"I so am, I can't help it...despite everything that I was like in high school and college I love this, love that you can make me feel so right and perfect. I like being femmy and a bottom and just everything."
"So the getting handled is good?"
"Yeah...I mean I'm not into the hurting stuff or getting some guy to treat me like shit. That'd be a hell no but this...this is really perfect Logan, seriously I love having that taken charge of feeling as I'm being fucked and making each other feel good."
He's sucking on my neck and definitely giving me a hickie and I don't care. I've never really minded having those.
"Yeah I'm not a fan of the hurt me, hurt you stuff but yeah...this is nice...I'm usually not into femmy a lot or twink boys because they're kinda whiny but this, this is nicer."
"Amazon sort of my sister said."
He chuckles. "Femmy Amazon yeah, definitely, I like that you're this femmy and still sort of built but not built."
"Not a fan of skinny?"
"I like someone I can really cut loose with without hurting them too much, that's solid enough to hold tight like this."
"Mmm...I like being held actually too Logan, it's not something I've really gotten out of past lovers and things and this is just really nice it feels good to be held for once...having someone doing that for me is really nice."
He nods against my skin. "Part of why I love being gay...getting this contact, giving it too. I can get it, feel them...you getting held and feel the reaction in your whole body that's a definite big thing for me."
"That's...that's actually awesome and likely one of the best explanations other than the sex a gay guy's ever given me."
I feel his smile against my skin. "Thank you, I like to share things."
"Oh...oh I know that and I'm grateful."
"Well you're welcome."
We snuggle more and sleep and I wake up to parts of the big window opened and the smell of the lake area which isn't bad at all plus the smells of flowers and fresh mown grass and I can hear Logan down the hall doing things and I slide out of bed and head to his bathroom grabbing my bag.
Oh...I can feel that feeling of being fucked so hard, so well inside me. Not just my butt it's inside of me too and I get cleaned up.
The wig being on better and the breast forms make a world of difference in me not freaking out.
I look fucked, well bedded but the hair, the boobs it all fits.
I'm not a straight guy, not anymore and looking at myself in the mirror even being a guy's not too right either.
I put the wig up in elastics and take off the rest of everything and text my sister.
*Had a great night, safe and sound and I think he's making breakfast.*
She doesn't answer back since it's early and I shower carefully and shave too just to be sure and then re-do my make-up and that makes me feel great.
Especially after I take my hair down and fix it up and then get dressed again into my gaff then fresh panties and my corset getting it tight and then getting my bra on.
I finish with a bit of perfume and slip out just in my underthings looking for Logan.
He's in the kitchen and he's making something and i can smell something great baking and he smiles at me.
"Morning beautiful."
Okay I blush at that because it came softly and easy from him and his face just showed he actually meant that.
"Morning handsome, you cook?"
"Definitely, I like to eat too it's a good life skill."
"I'm not a great cook."
"Coffee or tea?"
"Coffee please."
Logan pours me some from his perk and it's nothing fancy but it's fresh and there's cream and sugar on the table and I have my first mug black. It's my thing that wake me up cup bitter and good and bracing. I'll do cream and sugar after for the coffee that I'll nurse.
A thing from college where my first cup was rushed getting ready for classes then my second was from the kiosk in the quad once I was on campus.
I smile with delight as he takes out scones from his oven all hot and there's jam and butter on the table too.
"You bake?"
He laughs. "That's not baking Alexis that's bisquick mix."
"They're hot and smell awesome."
He takes one for himself and kisses me and I could get used to this.
It's pretty nice being the girl.
He butters his adding this great smelling jam that I try and have no idea what the heck it is but there's chunks of orange colored fruit and berries and I think a cranberry?
"You make this too?"
He's got steak out and shakes his head no as he does something with green peppers that have been grilled and charred adding then on top of the steak and then some diced jalapeno and onion?
"No, I got it down the road we have a small stand shop with three or four farmers and they sell and make things. That's apple jelly with diced mango, yellow currants and cranberries."
"Oh I need to go to more farmer's markets...this is danged good."
He nods then adds salt and pepper then another piece of steak then more salt and pepper like a sandwich?
"We all do honestly Alexis, we let them sell their hard work at their prices more than them having to sell to a store for less or the middle man."
"Hey as a seller of hardware and lumber I'm a middle man too...well woman."
"Hardware and construction are industries themselves I work my own rates and you make that possible babe. You guys also don't gouge as much as others and you get local lumber as much as possible instead of big box places that get stuff for really cheap from poor places around the world."
"Wow you're really into this stuff."
Logan blushes. "More than just the big dumb guy?"
"Definitely more, you make me think and you make me smile too."
I get my scone and jam and get up and go to the counter to watch him and kiss him in the process.
We have a sweet morning kiss between us.
"So what are you doing with the steak?" I ask.
He smiles. "Well I'm going to grill it but the steak's a little tough since it's cheap so I'm tenderizing it and adding peppers because they go with steak and..."
He has salt and pepper on all of it and the stuff in between both steaks and he has it on cling wrap and then covered by cling wrap and he actually uses that meat hammer thing you see in kitchen sets.
"I've never seen anyone actually use that."
Logan laughs and beats it all flatter but into one steak at the same time and all that stuff in between them and then he leaves it.
"Potatoes next." He goes to get them and I kiss him and sink down to my knees. "You first."
"Oh...oh yes please."
It's a repeat of me getting here last night but slower. I'm not drunk but I really want to do this for him and me too. I mean as soon as I thought of it I really wanted to do it.
It's good too...I love the look of my nails around his cock, I just like sucking it and knowing how that feels and all the things that feel good too and then making Logan moan and groan and his hands go from the counter to my head then through my hair.
"Oh...mmm...Alexis, fuck...Alexis...god princess that mouth of yours is magic...suck me, suck me...take it all...take it all."
Logan's hips move and he's fucking my mouth again and holding me there and I'm not passive either instead pursing my lips giving him as much lip to cock contact as I can give him and then pressing my tongue up to the underside of his cock.
"Oh...oh fuck Lexi...fuck, fuck, fuck that's it that's incredible...I'm going to cum!"
He buries his cock in and I know he was going to and I inhale as he does through my nose and pinch my thigh to block the gag reflex as he's all the way in and firing his cum into me.
What cock I have in my fingers is stroking even more cum from and he sighs and pulls out leaving a trail of cum over my tongue.
Perfect, just perfect and I slide up his great body and I kiss with him and tuck him away.
"Wow...you're such a great cocksucker Lexi."
"Thank you I'm learning still."
We kiss a little more before having another coffee and wow the feeling of coffee and just...just everything on dick friction puffy lips is so femmy and delicious feeling.
Cum goes with dark roast coffee too, the tangs sort of blend so well and then there's the smile on my face from just adding my cream and sugar this time after having Logan's thick cream.
And Logan finishes by making chunky fried potatoes with fresh herbs and grilled that steak thing to medium and serves it up with hollandais with capers?
That was really, really damned good.
The steak all juicy and tender and there was that steak meets green peppers and onions flavor and the salt and pepper are perfect then good potatoes and the sauce just kicks ass.
"Wow Logan that was amazing, what's next?"
He blushes. "For me work I've a few jobs on the go I work weekends too sometimes."
"Oh...am I making you late?"
"No, we're up early enough."
"Let me get dressed the rest of the way?"
"I'll clean up."
It's sort of the end of this great night and morning and it still is sort of awkward being on the girl side of this whole morning after thing and I don't overstay my welcome.
It's all still friendly even nice as he drops me off at my place after telling him where it's at and we share a fast kiss. "This was awesome Logan, it really was."
I go inside pretty fast so I'm not seen being Lexi in open daylight and sigh as I close and lock the door.
I half kick myself for not giving him my number and e-mails.
My sister's not here either and I head upstairs and start the process of going back to Alex.
I've got lots to think about.
Stuff Logan said and work.
Me and him and how good things felt.
Me and hook ups like this, do I want this, or do I want more than this?
Getting electrolysis.
Seriously if I'm going to do this I really don't want to keep shaving like a guy.
And once I'm Alex again, sort of I make some coffee and start working on the dining room of the house changing it from my plan of a dining room to a lounging sort of nook, something relaxed.
Being Alex is definitely getting less and less of me as time goes by.
I still dress and go to work and I still do all the regular stuff as I work to feminize myself.
Not just drag and crossdressing, but actually starting to feminize myself.
I mean yeah I get it...sort of that it's hard and that people won't get it but...but this stuff doesn't get easier it gets hard as you get older and I'm getting that time moves faster than we want.
So I've done stuff...started stuff like electrolysis to get my face smoother. I started dieting like no pop, more veggies then there's way less meat and working out to slim down and shape myself. Yeah those butt shaping and toning exercises are legit. Lots of butt shaping, lots of squats, lunges and all of that plus running, stair climbing, endless crunches, sides and cycling too I bought one of those treadmills and stair climber mixed ski machines that Bowflex makes and even got into making over the basement from just the basement into my home gym.
TV up on the wall, DVD players for the work out stuff and fixing up the walls to look nice and putting in decent flooring too.
Which took time and all but not too much and it got me and my sister who still hangs out to get stuff done down here a lot better. Like making sure all the cracks or potential cracks are sealed and more insulation and getting up the drywall and painting.
Kate uses it too all the time and sometimes we'll work out together on slow nights.
And she's helping Lexi too. All this stuff that's just everyday girl culture, all these givens, things that I'll fully admit that I didn't know or think about.
Then there's the corsets.
Fully my idea but Kate will help cinch me tighter and tighter.
I sleep in them.
Slowly bit by hard working bit I'm seeing results and I like them. I like it even if I'm not really with anyone.
I want to be with people it's just this kind of few nibbles online or on my phone but that's more about sex and hookups.
I don't actually need that. I'm not doing this just to get fucked.
Kate helped me with that by introducing me to sex toys.
No, nothing between sister kinky stuff aside from a lot of off colored jokes.
But when you're wanting to get off and not like a guy well it's a great option.
And bouncing up and down on a hard thick long realistic dildo is not just good for getting off it's practice and it's working out.
Ride that cock, work that ass, thighs, work it all.
It's all starting to work.
Losing weight, getting thinner, shaping my waist and butt and legs.
So I'm still kind of a jock or jockette?
Because I like all of it. I always have liked exercise because it's like meditative and I just sort of center and go through the reps and stuff.
I'd date Logan again but real life's pretty busy and with his work and my work and me fixing up my house and well working on me. I haven't really been out clubbing for a few months.
It was at a family barbeque when I was getting looks from my parents.
"Alex are you losing weight?" My mom asked.
"I am, well trying to plus working out to body shape."
Dad asks. "Body shape?"
I took a drink of my hard iced tea and looked at him then mom.
"I'm gay."
Dad nodded like it was nothing. "We know."
"You know?"
"Well it's not like we haven't noticed the changed Alex."
"Uhm...it's Lexi now."
Mom looks at me. "Lexi?"
"I'm...I want to be a girl mom."
She actually got up and came over and hugged me. "Oh sweetie."
"You're not mad?"
"We're not mad at you or your sister. And we noticed."
Dad nods. "What can we do to help?"
I stare at him. "You're okay with this?"
He just smiles setting a platter of BBQ down. "Like you've told us a million times Lexi we're practically hippies. We've gay and even trans friends, you're our kid we love you."
Kate looks at me. "Well we're out."
We stare at each other and we share a laugh and mom tells me to go home and get my Lexi clothes and I take off and go get things to get changed in and I shower, body wash to smell right, deodorant and tuck and then underwear, bra, breast forms and get changed into a nice tight pair of jeans and a sporty red women's work out top I got from Nike's women's section online.
Then I head home.
It was weird but awesome being out with them and eating supper and they were really cool about it all.
Even after supper was a hell of a lot of fun as mom dragged us to her room and we spent the night playing dress up.
I'm still tall and I'm not on hormones but I felt so soft and sweet and girly especially when mom's giving me compliments on how I look. She says I have great legs and a cute butt.
And I'm pretty damned proud at how amazed she is of how much that I work out and train to make myself thinner and curvier. She laughed and said that she couldn't do it and Kate agreed with her.
It was really fun.
Clothes, hair, make-up, learning a whole bunch of new things and drinking too as we talked about guys.
My mom didn't talk about dad to freak us out but she did talk about old college flings and guys she dated and she got pretty graphic.
And I spilled about Logan.
It was like the best night.
And it helped me get my confidence back too and wanting to be with someone.
So when the next Thursday at Clancy's rolled around I took the day off and took serious time getting ready for tranny night.
For like the better part of the week I worked out like crazy, doubled up on everything and did sit ups, side to sides, squats and lunges until it hurt and dieted too. Workout shakes for two meals and chicken and veggies and some rice for the third meal and wore my corsets extra tight even sleeping in them.
It worked too, I lost another inch at my waist and my butt got tighter and fuller looking and I lost like three pounds.
The day of dance night was getting soaked and scrubbed and lotioned sweet smelling and lubed and pushing this pretty big butt plug up into my ass which stretched me wide but soon felt amazing and made me sway even more as I got ready and moved through the house.
I took a lot of time getting my breasts forms on perfectly and even more.
Dabs of the glue directly on my nipples and made sure that set perfectly.
Then blended the edges in, the flaps for the faux beasts. Yeah I have the trans ones with the skin flaps so they sort of become part of you.
And the extra glue over my nipples was such a turn on as I moved and shimmied and I could feel it so much more as they moved and bounced and tugged.
I went with a long wavy brunette wig and took my time with that and went with fake lashes too and nails. I matched my nails to my toes and slipped myself after tucking my hairless smooth balls away and inside of me and fixed my girl dick down under sexy lace panties from La Vie en Rose and a corset that matched and was the bustier that gave me really great cleavage.
A garter and lace styled stockings too.
The last thing was my dress a sweet girly number that's like a plunging black number that has enough room to show off my lingerie and make-up. The very last before I called a cab was my lipstick.
Which I put on after sucking my dildo hard and fast pressing my lips to the rubbery veiny surface getting my head into the mindset of sucking a thick manly cock and most importantly getting my lips kissed with that sweet friction so they plumped up even more before I add that final touch of lipstick.
I definitely got looks from my cabbie.
I'm pretty sure he was hard when I paid him and got out and swayed into Clancy's.
Oh the place was way busier than I though going in with at least maybe twenty girls like me plus a mix of our girl friends there as well and a lot of guys. I had to stop and catch myself as I was catching lots of stares and looks.
Some of them are jealous and catty like before and from some of the same queens and stuff.
Troy is there with a surprised look and a hug and a smile and a drink as I get close to the bar.
"Lexi you look amazing girl!"
"Thanks, I was hoping that would be the result. I kinda took the entire day off for it."
He laughed. "Trust me honey it's worth it, makes me think about femming up with all the stares you're getting."
We start the night with a Fuzzy navel which is a peach drink and while a "girly drink" it's made with hard stuff in it.
We have a few of those as we mingle and I get to meet a few people and other girls while I get remembered to some of the others and we get our drink on pretty fast and then we're out to the dance floor.
That's fun.
I'm seriously liking dancing and the shimmy shake and the feeling of my butt plug inside me and the newer bounce tug of my breasts just makes it better than ever. And all that working out had definitely helped too.
And I'm good at dancing too, it's like a workout routine and stuff so I've been always pretty good with it.
It only gets better when I'm dancing with these guys getting in there too.
I get pretty buzzed and have fun but I have careful fun.
There's a lot of chasers here and there's just some guys that have this kind of creepy vibe.
Yeah I don't really get friendly with the fringed guys those non dancing hanger ons there.
I do get friendly with the guys that dance and they talk to me and flirt as we dance.
But I'm looking for something, for someone strong, that is into girls like me and it takes a while before I meet Danny.
He's there with friends and he is friendly and definitely not part of the scene.
I get him a beer as I get another drink and I offer it to him.
"Drink?"
He looks at me and looks me over and takes the beer and I look him over too. Tall good looking, military looking, sandy blonde hair and great muscles and from what I can tell a nice full package.
"Way out of your comfort zone right?"
He looks surprised. Like I was going to come onto him or flirt.
"Yeah, I'm here for Sonny's birthday and he just came out so here I am. Not that you trans girls aren't pretty it's just."
"It's just you're out of your element and you're straight."
Danny nods.
I take a drink of my drink. "I get the out of your element thing, it works both ways."
"It does, you're freaked out by straight people?"
"I was freaked out by my first time with a guy and discovering that there's this whole other side of me that thought she was a straight guy."
"Really?"
"Oh yeah, right into this semi nervous breakdown."
"And now?"
"Now's the first night I've been out in ages and I'm just trying to get my groove going."
"Not a party girl?"
"No, not really. I want to have a life but most of that's between work and fixing my house up that I bought and starting to come out."
"Starting?"
"Yeah I came out to my family."
"Ouch."
I smile. "No, not really they're really cool about it."
"Well that's good."
"Thanks, and thanks for being a nice guy Danny."
"Well there are still some of us out there."
I smile at him. "You know there's still some nice girls out there too."
I look him in the eyes and he's looking at me. "Not all of us are lucky to be the way we feel but we do make up for it Danny."
He looks at me and offers his hand. "Dance?"
"You didn't seem like a dancer."
"Oh I'm not I suck at it but you don't so if you're willing to bear with me shuffling I'd love to try."
That makes me laugh and I go with him to the dance floor and we start dancing.
He's right he is terrible.
But it gives me a lot of time and chances to move with him closely and bump and grind and just smile and laugh and be flirty and fun.
Then it happens, they switch the music to slow dancing and that's something he can do.
It feels awesome to be held.
It feels awesome to be held close to a guy like Danny and to feel slight and small and girly and dainty.
I'm not going to apologize either because it feels good and I don't care if I'm a walking stereotype.
Three slow dances in and Danny kisses me.
And not a peck either but a real kiss.
I didn't even try to do the leg lift thing when he was kissing me.
But it happened anyway.
I had butterflies and all these feeling when he asked me. "Lexi? You want to get out of here?"
"I do, definitely, what about Sonny?"
"I think he's too busy to notice me taking off."
I look around and Sonny is nowhere to be seen so likely he's in the gentlemen's.
That's a likely place for in club hook ups.
Danny takes my hand and we head out together and he waves over a cab and he looks at me.
"Where to?"
"That's up to you."
"My hotel?"
"Sure."
Danny gives the cabby where to go and I'm not all that versed in the actual Hotels in town. I know where some of the motels are but this wasn't out near the highway it was just off of downtown and had a wall and a nice yard with trees and cedar bushes and a pool plus a hot tub that I could seen because they were well lit.
I'm nervous as Danny takes me inside to his room with us getting a nod and a smile from the guy at the front desk that looked busy doing paperwork while it was late.
It's not a big place but it's very nice in here compared to all the motels that I've been to.
Danny key-cards us into his room and he kisses me again and again as we get more and more passionate and his hands are wandering and touching me and feeling me and I'm doing the same.
He's really in good shape, and while not a model or bodybuilder with the perfect abs and things but he's evenly thick, a bit of fat to go with all that muscle and he has tattoos.
CMR? Reg Forces? He is or was military.
That, that kind of makes him hotter.
Danny cups my breast forms and bra and I ask. "Can I leave this on? It makes the illusion better, I'm going to have real ones someday."
He nods and kisses me. "It doesn't matter Lexi. Actually the corset and the garter and stockings are really hot."
"Really? I think so too."
"I've never been with a girl that's wore them before."
We kiss again and again warming up to each other and he moves us to the bed and he sits and pulls me into his lap.
That's a thrill.
I love, really love being handled like that.
It makes me feel smaller, girlier, submissive.
Definitely things that I'm into.
It gets better and hotter as Danny plays with my tits and I ache inside wanting it to be real in sort of a good way.
And his hands all over my stockings, my sides, playing with my garter belts.
I ache for cock.
No seriously.
More than any hard on I've ever had I want to be filled, stretched, fucked.
I want cock inside me rubbing and tapping my joy spot.
I kiss him back as I step out of my dress and undo his belt and let his pants and boxers fall and a nice long thick cock springs out.
I reach down and start stroking him making him take a breath.
"Oh you're good at this Lexi."
"Thank you, that's a great cock Danny."
I kiss it, nuzzle it, lick it and stroke it and while her watches me I make eye contact as I lick the pre-cum I've stroked out of him.
That's enough to make me want more.
I'm craving cum now.
Some people will say it's bullshit but some gay folks will definitely tell you being hot for someone is pheromonal and stuff.
I'm telling you that I'm sure that in some biological way we don't get yet there are things in our cum that make it all better.
I crave cum inside of me, I want it.
It makes me feel good.
And I it drives me in sucking Danny's great cock. I start as slow as I can going for savoring it as much as I can doing all the things I used to like when girls gave me head.
And lots of eye contact.
I do that until I get too turned on by it and my natural wants take over and I start sucking his dick with greedy abandon.
Danny moves with me and his hands get in my hair and I start moving with him as his natural inclination to ride my mouth kicks in I just go with it.
Actually more than that I help but when he starts taking over I let him.
I love this.
I love when a guy has me in his grip and is being a man making me the sweet little princess that I want to be.
I love the way that Danny's cock hits the back of my throat and it feels like I'm getting cock, dick tattooed into my brainstem.
I little breathlessness has me riding the happy edge and I'm smiling around his cock and hum moan laughing...well as best as I can with cock inside my mouth and I'm coming inside my panties It's so sexy and hot and Danny groans.
"Oh fuck, oh wow Lexi, oh wow, no girl's ever done that."
I grasp the base of that lovely cock and suck, not just suck but like I'm back in college and I'm shotgunning a beer.
"LEXI!"
I pull the cum from Danny's cock.
Eyes locked on his.
Suck and suck and suck pulling out every last drop as I smile with my lips around his cock.
He looks choked up emotionally from his orgasm.
I swallow.
"Oh Lexi, holy...no one's...not one other girl has ever done that, never let me do that, never was happy like that."
"Worth getting together?"
He pulls me up and actually lifts me off the floor and it's super thrilling and I wrap my legs around his waist.
He kisses me so deeply and sweetly and lays me on the bed.
"Worth it, you were worth every fucking terrifying, horrible day in fucking Afghanistan."
I tear up.
He has tears in his eyes too and we kiss and kiss and i fumble for my purse and my lube.
It's passionate and frantic and he's so turned on it feels like his cock is pulsing in my hand as I guide him inside of me.
"Danny, Danny please fuck me, please baby fuck me and make me feel perfect and small and pretty, make me your girl, please baby."
He sinks that big cock into me and starts moving.
"I'm going to make love to you Lexi, I've never, ever dreamed a girl like you existed. I'm going to give you everything I have, I want to give you everything i have."
I sob.
I happy sob.
And we kiss as all these amazing feelings are happening to me all pushed higher or deeper as Danny's cock is sinking into me.
It goes from love making to me asking for. "More..."
"Deeper..."
"Harder Danny..."
"Please..."
"There! Danny there it's going to make me girl cum!"
It's so intense as we go from love making to sex to hard desperate fucking and Danny making me sissy cum and cry out and seize around him as he filled me with his seed and those moments went from fucking me hard to soft kisses, love making until his cock hardened and we went from slow to hard again.
To my legs over his shoulders and him folding me in half as part of him fucked me like he was exorcising demons from the war.
To me on all fours as he drilled me so hard and perfect in my sissy spot that all my thoughts turned into how Danny's fucking me so hard and he's making me feel sexy and sleek and small a pretty and fuckable.
More than that loveable.
I love getting fucked.
I love feeling his seed filling me.
I don't care if it's seen as gay or if I'm a straight trans girl but this is perfect to me.
Danny with those strong warriors hands gripping my waist and him just manhandling me pulling me onto his big fat thick cock as he thrusts really hard and fast.
Those strokes are hitting my sissy spot driving waves of pleasure through me and it really is the best fucking feeling.
It's definitely rough.
Rough but good.
He's in this other place too, where I can see he's going through stuff from being over there.
"Ughnn...fuck me Danny, fuck me! Welcome home baby, welcome home, fill me baby, fuck me, take your reward, take me, take every stroke you more than earned!"
God he fucks me so hard I just get non-verbal and make all the sweet sounds that you do when getting your brains fucked out.
I even blank on how long I've been on all fours and how that should hurt after a while.
It only stops after he cries out and fills my insides with his cum again.
It still feels like man cum inside of me does something to my brain.
Danny's spent though and I've cum like a girl a couple of times so I'm feeling blissful and he pulls out and we end up snuggling.
"Wow Lexi that was..."
"Amazing, yeah you were amazing Danny, you made me feel real."
"Real?"
"Yeah, I mean I have a good life, had a good life but I was in denial and going through the motions. By the time I really got what was going on in my head I was stuck with trying to catch up to being me...like this now."
He listened and nodded his face pressed to my hair.
"I get that I think, coming home's hard, things don't feel real here."
"Sometimes Danny I feel pretty far from real."
"No Lexi, you're real. Not perfect so that's kinda awesome in this whole helping to ground me sort of way."
I chuckle. "I'm far from perfect."
"Yeah well most girls I know try to fake it, try to fake stuff is okay. Life's not okay."
I feel him shake while holding me and I roll over and he's not crying but he just looks like there's so much hurt there still bubbling up.
I kiss him as soft as I can and do it a few times and then just pull him into a hug.
Danny shakes some more and then he starts crying on my shoulder.
I hold him and rock him even humming a little before he falls asleep in my arms and everything catches up to me too.
It was a really good sleep too and getting woken up to this hand job blow job combo was good, really unexpected but good.
"Oh...oh...oh wow Danny..."
I cum and groan and shift in the sheets and he comes up kissing and even playing with my boobs in the breasts forms. At some point my bra had come off and then we're kissing.
"Morning."
"Morning Danny, that...you didn't need to do that."
"I don't care about that part of you Lexi unless it bothers you, it's you and that's more than parts."
I blush and smile and we kiss again and then it's more lube and Danny sinking inside of me.
Morning after fucking feels great.
Danny moans as he sinks into me and I moan too.
"Oh, oh wow that feels so good."
"You don't have to say that Lexi, I mean..."
"No, I'm not amping this up Danny, you fucked me good and hard last night and right now this slow sink it of your hot hard cock feels good babe, soothing, like a hot massage stick."
He laughs. "Really?"
I smile and kiss him. "Really and it's kind of cool. I'm still pretty new to this too."
That makes him smile all the more and we have this really connected lovemaking session with slow thrusts, careful fucking, gentle but really enjoyed orgasms and sissygasms only stopping after we both came twice.
Then a nap.
And then he's looking at me as we wake up and showering and he's packing.
"Sorry, It's just that it's way past checkout and I wasn't planning on staying here the night."
I'm drying off and getting my things.
"It's okay, so what's next?"
"Staying at a friends house for a couple of days the wedding has kind of a bunch of get togethers going."
He stops looking at me. "You want to go with me? I mean most of them were there at the party and stuff."
"Me? I'm coming out Danny, you'd be good with that? I mean I don't exactly pass as a woman."
"Yes, and you're sexy Lexi, fun and you're a good person."
"Okay, I'll go but how about you crash with me?"
"I'd love to but I'm not an easy sleeper."
I go over and kiss him. "It's okay Danny I got you."
We kiss some more before heading to check out and yeah there's looks by the morning staff but the manager waves off the over charge thanking Danny for his service.
I smile at him and tip them a twenty. "Thank you, that was really cool of you. I'll right a good review."
He actually smiles at me. "That'd be lovely miss."
Miss.
I'm kind of happy all the way to Danny's truck and give him directions to my place.
And get him to stop at the grocery store and morning after and everything be damned we go in and I get a few things.
And yeah there's some more looks too at me and us especially when we are talking close and getting things for home but also for the BBQ that we'll be going to this afternoon.
And well the kiss at the check out.
There might even have been a few rude things said by assholes under their breath but it didn't bother me.
I know this stuff will be coming as I transition.
And Danny seems like I mean more to him than the stuff that was said or the looks too.
Him being this perfect gentleman in getting the stuff from the cart and both the door for the grocery and the truck was really cool too.
It was just good.
It was actually pretty proud at my house and how much work was done and how much he thought it was cool and we started getting unpacked and I put on a wash for his things and made coffee and I started getting potatoes on for potato salad and egg salad since mom has a good recipe and I let him use my phone and he calls home to his folks and I give him the okay to give out my number to his folks and my e-mail and as he does that I put on some tunes and make breakfast for both of us.
He joins me before long and we do a little bacon and french toast and we dance together to some of the tunes playing off of my Spotify lists and then there's more kissing.
And talking as the eggs and potatoes cool off and we get started making things together.
Stuff about him and his friends and things from there and then it's getting everything together.
Mom's potato salad is golden potatoes and then sweet white onion chopped decently small and two cans of baby peas plus some chopped celery and then there's of course her secret sauce.
That's mayo, a half block of really soft cream cheese and some Franks red hot sauce but also a strained can of cream style corn. So like just the sauce.
The egg salad of what we call it is the same stuff sort of but there's chopped up hard boiled eggs in it and instead of the creamed corn liquid there's chopped sweet pickles in it and some fresh dill.
Once that's done we put it in the fridge to chill and Danny takes me off to the bedroom where we make love again.
I get emptied and cleaned before we do anything and then we start slowly like we did this morning before we get even more and more into it and even as Danny's thick hard cock is slamming into me we're kissing, face to face, fingers interlaced as he uses that to sexily pin me down and for leverage too as he gets lost there again while we make love and he's excising his demons.
He's not violent but he is strong, he is rough, he fucks me really hard while he's there in that space and I like that. I like his power, I like how he makes me feel when he does this.
The emotional stuff is even more powerful than getting off I swear as Danny getting off brings him back to earth and back to himself.
And I'm there.
There holding him, kissing him, milking his cock dry with my insides with my legs around him keeping him there.
Grounded with me as he breathes through coming back face planted in my chest.